This past month has been unusual for me....it's the first time since in 39 years that I have been without a child of mine in my house. I find I don't particularly like it...I've grown so accustomed to being a "mommy"...it's hard to imagine what my role is now.
I "know" my youngest had to break the apron strings, has to spread his wings and fly....and God willing he'll soar with the eagles.
I'm in the process of cleaning out his bedroom, that in itself is hard to do. My husband seems to be okay with everything and looks at it as gaining another room.
With my older son and daughter I didn't have these feelings because I still had the care & responsibility of their toddler brother when they left home.
I know that we've raised him well, he's respectful, honest, hard working, & reliable...almost every girl that he has ever dated has had parents that love my son. I guess I can't ask for more than that.
I just wonder if alot of older mothers feel like me....life is full of changes and surprises.
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I kinda know what your going through. My daughter left once but came back, my son left and joined the Navy. He's my baby, and he's the one I got along with the most he has a better understanding of me or life. He's not the selfish one.
We got along great. My daughter well we have our moments. Her being home is like her not living here anyways, she's never here.
So I kinda of understand the feeling of, I miss the way is was...always taking care of children They are my joy. I liked taking care of them and now I don't have to. It hurts, but I have to let go to. It's not easy, even so. They are old enough and can take care of themselves. It doesn't mean we have to stop caring for them. I think motherhood goes on till we die. We will always have an ache to do as we once did. But that's when we need to do something for ourselves. It's not easy especially when all you've done is think of them or take care of them. Keeping busy will ease the pain. Reading Your Bible and communing with God will help and getting together with friends or start making new friends will do wonders to lift your spirits. I'm working on that myself. So don't be discouraged, your not alone. It always helps to know someone else is going through the same thing.
It's a time to get to know the one who created you, so he can comfort you during this time in your life. He is faithful and keeps his promise to comfort those in need.
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